rejection

As I lay alone, crying in my bed,
With a permanent rain cloud over my head,
I feel that life is letting me go,
The whole world goes by so slow,
With me just watching as time goes by,
And I stare at the moon in the dark night sky,
And I wish for just a moment that I wasn’t me,
Why cant the people around me see?
That even though im not a work of art,
It doesn’t mean you can break my heart,
The soul shattering stares at me you give,
If only you knew how hard my life is to live,
With so many rejections from the closest most dear,
Im screaming inside if only you’d hear,
If I was beautiful would you notice me?
Would I be visible for all to see?
If I was gorgeous, a picture of beauty
Loud outgoing or bubbly a cutie,
Why cant you look inside and see?
Or cant you love me for just being me?